My mother passed away on monday. Life is bitter sweet.
 

Yeah, i hate to say it and believe me it still hasnt sunk in all the way. im the oldest of 7 and we are 6 boys 1 girl. youngest are twins( joshua and NOel ) of 6 years old and my bro Benji who is 11. then Diana ( 14) Carlos (15) Rafael ( 24) and Self ( 28 )

My mother was 46 and the cause of death is still under investigation. She is at the coroners and we wont know what cause her to pass till saturday or monday morning.
She was fine on m onday morning doing her usual things like taking a walk around the neighborhood and making my dad something to eat for work. she awoke at 5:30 and did all her routine things. 7:12am monday morning my dad left to work and was the last time he saw her alive.

My brother benji heard her call for him around 7:3o ish. He said she told him she wanst feeling well and to call 911. he said she wasnt breathing well and that she collapsed. the paramedics came and she was out. They tried to bring her back numerous times in the ambulance and at the hospital with no luck. I was given the bad news when i arrived at the hospital around 9 ish.

My brother ralph and my GF were with me. When we got to where my mother was in the hospital my dad was wating by her side and told us. It was horrible. i felt like ----. i still do. I dont know what to make of all this and it sucks that my lil bros are left without my m om.

The good thing is that she did a good job at raising us to take care of ourselves. I will forever miss her and will be one with mjyself when i meet up with here in heaven.

Miss you mom...i know you can see and hear me.

I just needed to vent cause i didnt want to go insane.

Any of the socal members that have me my mom knows how nice of a person she was. She was very active in the community, church and school and touched many peoples lives. Did her best to make other peoples lifes better even if it meant that we saw less of her at home. Still , all she had were good intentions.

If any Socal hmt members that met my mother and would like to attend her services just let me know and ill post up the funeral info. More than likely it will be next week tuesday, weds. at the eraliest maybe sat or sunday. I will keep you guys posted if anyone cares.

thanks for listening.

Julio Bustamante :'( :( :8

My brother be

Re: My mother passed away on monday. Life is bitter sweet.
 

Shitty to hear that dude. Wasn't she suffering from bi-polar or along the lines of that ? I kind of remember the thread of her calling the cops on you lol.

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I know we live on opposite sides of the country, but I'm really sorry to hear Julio. We're all here for you buddy.

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Wow 46, that is very early. My prays are with you and your family, I very sorry to here that. Take care of your self Julio!

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she had some issues with something mental but never was i 100% sure of what it was. What sucks more is that i spent like tha last 3 months fighting with her and not talking to her and now this. ----!

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Sorry to hear Julio. Keep your mexican head up.

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+1

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one of the only times real sympathy will be given on hmt

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+2... My grandmother is in the hospital right now and its not lookin' good. Sad week

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Oh man Julio, I'm sorry bro. She was really friendly to me when I was there this past October. Hell I think she even gave me hug if I remember. Man your pops has alot on his plate now with your little bros and sister to take care of now by just himself. Man this really got me bumming now. Expect a call cabron.

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My condolences Julio.

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condolences bro. youll get through it man

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sorry to hear that bro. condolcences

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From me too bro. I'm sorry.

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thanks guys.

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Sorry buddy.

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That really sucks Julio, I hope things get better for you and your family.

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X100000000

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"You should do this sometime. I am a rocket. My time over the gap is a life. I am a cloud, so slow, for an instant I am a slow-moving cloud whose movement is elegant, cavalier, like sleep." -Dave Eggers self written eulogy

My heart goes out to you man. Keep your head up.

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Wow, I'm 27 and haven't lived at home for nearly a decade, my only other sibling is 26 and has lived away from home for at least 5 years. I still couldn't imagine what we would do if my mom passed away, she holds our family together.

I have no doubt times will be tough and emotional, my deepest sympathies, and condolences. Be strong.

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good luck man from HMT australia, and the family :)

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Sorry to hear man. That would be tough.

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WOW i'm really sorry to hear about your mom, my prayers are with you and yours

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hey man sorry to hear that julio. Just found out about it this morning. I'll be going out there tommorow.

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Make your own damn thread. This one is Julios.

I didn't know her but my condolences.

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Prayers are with you nig.

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Julio mi amigo, blessed be your family, but do NOT beat yourself up about your moms bipolar issues the past few months.

Amen

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Don't know you but I give my condolences. I'm actually pretty impressed HMT is being mature for once in a while lol. Your mother must be a special person.

Stay close to your siblings, they're gonna need you more than ever right now.

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Atleast shes somewhere better, this world has gone to ----

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Sorry to hear it man.

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i'm sorry for your loss. the best thing you can do is be there for your siblings as the oldest.

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sorry to hear man i wish u and your family all the best may she rest in peace, its not easy when you loose a parent

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My sincere condolences.

Remember, you were privileged to be a part of her life. So feel blessed that you knew her. And know that she's in a better place now.

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sorry to here man. its gunna get worse before it gets better, but it looks like you have plenty of friends here to help you out. i dont know you all that well but if you need someone to talk to, pm me. i kinda know what your going through with family dying, my uncle died last year, then my other uncle, and my other uncle, and my grandma. seems like its all falling apart, but it will make you so much closer to your remaining family. i. not very relgious but ill say a prayer for her.

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whatever you do dont beat yourself up about it.. you still got brothers and sisters to look after.. think about it this way.. now you can move back in with your dad and help him arround the house ;D

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actually i think you would HAVE to move back in.. for your brothers/sister to adjust :-\

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Sorry to hear. Hope the best for you and your family.

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Sorry to hear that I know how it feels to loose parents

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Sorry to hear that my thoughts and prayers our with you and your family

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Yeah, that the irony in all this. all the fussing and fighting between me my dad and my mom for what? Im back home for now taking care of my family and being as strong as i can. So many people have come by the house to pay their respects. Its awsome how many people have come out. She was an awsome mother, friend, community member, and wife. She did all she could for us and leaves us behind as her legacy to continue on.

My dad is doing ok for now. I can only imagine how tough it will be on us when the funeral services roll around. Her body is still at the coroners awaiting investigations as to what caused her sudden death. None of the hospital personnel nor her primary doctors would sign off on her death cert cause of the nature of how she left us. Its fucked up but atleast the coroner will be able to really tell us what happened.

I know shes in a better place and she no longer has to suffer being a human being in this place we call earth. Im sure shes kicking it with jebus somewhere in Heaven right know exchaning stories on what good they did here on earth.

I really miss her guy and its only been 2 days. what happend when my sister turns 15 and m y mom isnt here?

what happens when my little bros finish school? who will help them with their homework? what will they think that mom isnt here? carlos and diana are almost done with highschool and my mom wont be here to see them graduate. all these things keep me up and bring me to tears.

The only thing that reassures me that its gonna be ok is the fact that our family is so big and so strong that i dont think anyone will leave us behind.

Im gonna go look around at some tattoo shops as i have a piece that i want done in memory of my mother. I drew it up myself so that the tattoo artist has an idea of what i want. its gonna go on my left arm from my elbow to my wrist. I never wanted this to be a reason for me getting a tattoo as big as this but i guess now is a good reason for it.

This one 's for you ma!