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imagine you get to your mom's house (your parents are divorced) after school (pretend you're in school) and you call your dad to see if you little sister needed to be dropped off at practice. She doesn't need to be dropped off at practice, but, have you heard the news? what ------- news? It's hard to say this, we're the hmt family and all, but I don't usually like to mix family business with friends. in this case it's affecting my whole life, so I might as well tell you, I think it will help me deal with it since I haven't told any of my friends. My mom got arrested Tuesday morning in part of a city wide drug sting. she's charged with drug trafficing and some 4th degree firearm felony. ----. My mom got arrested 2 days ago, but she's been gone for a while. My mom left and someone else has been there, someone I don't know and I want a refund. It's probably been over six months since I noticed the change in her. She got really skinny, and she's just been acting differently, not herself. I'm still collecting pieces to this puzzle, but so far I have found out that she started doing meth for weight loss, she was getting bigger and she couldn't stand it, she was willing to do anything to be skinny again. She got addicted, she quit one job, moved to another, quit there. For a while now she hasn't had a job, she's just been doing odd jobs to make money to pay the bills, cleaning up constuction sites for my uncle's construction company, bartending, and I came to find out Tuesday selling meth. The landlord heard through the grapevine that she sold to an undercover agent.

What does this mean for me? my mom is gone. her bail is $25grand, nobody will pay the 2500 to get her out and put up the 25k in collateral because we're poor, cheap ass mofuckers and she's a flight risk. I haven't seen her or talked to her since this happened, they weren't letting anybody into the detention center until the paper work was done, and I can't go anyways, I'm 17. Everybody that could go with me is very busy, and I don't like to ask people to help me, I like to be independent.

I have to get the house we live in cleared out, and we have alot of ----. The living room is half filled with boxes and the other half with furniture, my room and my mom's room the same story. My grandparents are helping me get all this ---- out, but there's been bad blood between my grandma and my grandpa ever since their divorce some number of years ago so it's hard to get them together to work this out. My brothers and I have been irritable as ---- lately, I guess we deserve to be.

The good thing is that I do have a family that is trying to do what they can to help us out of this fucked up situation.

I don't give a ---- who replies to this, I just wanted to get it out, I haven't been able to tell any of my friends, it's just too weird for me.

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sorry to hear that ---- kyle, hopefully everything will work out for you

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you caught a raw deal there man, good luck with it

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----, there goes my meth dealer, j/k j/k. sorry to hear kyle, thats fucked up, hope you get your mom back.

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damn, sucks man, sorry to hear, but hopefully if anything, your mom has set an example for you what not to do :-\ don't be mad at yourself or anyone else, your mom put you in this situation, now you have to clean up her mess since she's not around, i'd be pissed at her honestly :-\

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Hey Kyle thats some real fucked up ----, My best advice is get in there or have someone from ur family get in there when they can and talk to her and make sure she gets through this. You want her to be there for you and out of trouble when she gets out, and if you go talk to the DA he can possibly lower the bail. Im really sorry to hear this though
Best- Mike

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I've talked to 2 grandparents, 2 aunts, and 1 dad about bailing her out, all of them think it's a good idea to leave her in jail and just keep communication with her. She doesn't have anything to do until the trial, that's no good, she's goign to be going through withdrawals, that's no good, my grandma thinks she might become suicidal (but my grandma exagerates alot), it's best if she stays in so she can be monitored all the time and get the counciling and medical care she needs. I need to compose myself before I visit because I don't want to be in there blabbing like a baby and making her feel like ----, and I don't want to get mad at her and make her feel like ----. I need to be upfront and ask her what she wants me to do with everything, and I need to let her know that I still love her and that we'll get through it.

hopefully I can get back on track, I'm skipping school today because I can't focus on ---- right now, the more people I talk to about this the more I think about it and I can't think about anything else.

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yeah dude, family is really all you have in life. do whatever you can to help her, i agree with the keeping her in jail thing, let here get the care she needs. just keep your head up man

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Sorry to hear the news Kyle. All I can say is you are somewhat lucky that your family is there for you. I agree with her just staying in jail for a while. I know it's gonna be tough for you and your sis, but you can use this oppurtunity to get close to the rest of your family. Good luck, bro! I know things will work out. We are here for you as well!

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im really sorry whats going on in your life right now kyle. Im sorry bout your mom and how your family not going to help her get out. Try everything in your power to not let this effect your life too much and learn from this. I wish the best luck and if you need anything im here for you man.

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You can PM me with any emotions or feelings you have, I'm not yet certified for psychology but I gurantee I can help you get through your problems. You were wise in posting this - just try to stay out of dwelling in the negativity and dwell in the positivity in your life (I know... easier said then done right).

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You need to talk with your friends (your closer ones) not the general "aquaintance" type. Hell I'm sure just posting this has made you feel a little better.

Just remember when you hit rock bottom all you can do is go up, you sound like an intelligent kid... focus on your education and lead your own damn life. I had to grow up without my parents to, and I've been struggling to get over it - in fact I'm actually preparing to sue them for neglect of my sister and I (you think your parents are bad? My father tried to sell my baby sister on the black market).

This is the sort of bullshit that happens in the world, but there are good things that happen to. You will become a much wiser man then you thought before, you will become stronger emotionally and you will be ready to cope with others in the future.

But like I said, do what you need to do to get the greivances out of your system, I would suggest, running a mile, or beating the crap out of a punching bag. Don't worry about your mother she's obviously beyound your help (and I hope that doesn't hurt to say). Your grandparents sound like they're at least uniting in some way to help you out.

Is the house going to be left to you? Are you working?

Just remember... stay in school, get an education in something profitable, like engineering or become an RN or even a Psychologist.... Make something out of nothing.

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my little sister isn't related to my mom, here's the break down of my family:

older half brother, mom is our relation
younger brother, both mom and dad same
younger step sister, she became related when my dad married my stepmom
younger half sister, dad is our relation, product of my dad and step mom.


In this situation this is probably the best thing that could have happened. My mom was too damn stubborn to admit she had a problem and to go get help, she never told my brother or me (my older brother doesn't live with us) that she had a problem, we thought her change was due to alcohol. If this would have continued she would have died, she either would have been killed by one of these dumbasses that is into the ---- with her or the drug would have killed her. It sucks that she has to go to jail in order to be helped, but at this point it's the best thing. I really appreciate your comforting words, I don't usually post in threads like this because I can't genuinly feel sorry for other people and I don't want to be fake.

<--Like my new permanent marker tatoo?

As my 90 year old greatgrandma always tells me "we shall muddle through"

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I graduate on may 21st, and in the fall I'm going into EE, so I'll be alright in the future. The house doesn't belong to us, we're renting it. I have a part time job, I work about 20 hours a week working 3 nights a week, and I just picked up another day for work last week, so that's 4 nights a week. I've been living half the time at my mom's and half at my dad's, so the transision to my dad's hasn't been hard, we just need to find room for all of our ----.

I'm not really close with any of my friends, I don't really want to talk to any of them about this, I might tell them about it though.

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well i'm glad to see you get through all this, your a good person kyle.

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Sounds like you've lived a pretty tough life like I did to then. But don't blame yourself or feel guilty in anyway for any of this. You're a strong and intelligent person, I mean look at what you just posted you know where you're going.

But PM me if you ever need to talk, I will be your friend.

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check your pm.


the whole half at my mom's half at my dad's thing was never really hard on my brother and I, it's been our way of life for the last 10 years.

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and kyle if your having trouble storing all your stuff I'd be glad to take some D-series parts off your hands, you know, just to help you out and all.

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haha, I have all my heating/cooling ---- sitting in a box in front of my mom's, you want it?

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heating cooling means what exactly? ;)

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Kyle i just wish u the best and i hope i get through this as fast as u can,keep your head up.
guil

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Kyle, that sucks man. Good thing it's not going to be hard for you and your brother to transition over to your Dad's.
The hard fact is that people aren't willing to help themselves until something like this forces them to. Hopefully the time in jail will teach your mom that she doesn't need that ---- to live life. It will also teach her what happens when you think responsibility is a part time job. Of course you love her, it's your mom, but I think she will learn a very good and hard lesson if nobody tries to go "get her off the hook". I really don't think that will help her. Good luck, brother. -Steve

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For once Stealth and I agree on something somewhat ethically :)

But I think that you should be ready to lose attachment to her, because who knows what type of person she is going to become. But always be ready to accept her back into her life - even after my parents have betrayed me year after after year, I still love them and I'm always willing to forgive they just never seem to grow the hell up.

But the best of wishes.

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sorry to hear that man

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I've been nothing but an ------- to you your entire time here on hmt, and you post something like that, maybe you're not so bad after all.

heating and cooling meaning the blower assembly, the ac thing inside the car, the whole ventworks system and the little switch and lever panel.

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theres not much to be said that hasnt been said already. good luck with everything man, im sorry to hear about all that has happened.
best of luck, and if u need anytyhing, im sure we're all here for ya - Chris

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same thing with you as with black del sol, I really feel the love here on hmt

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I love you too kyle, and I don't want no shity ------- heating control bullshit, thanks tho, your pall

Spenser. ;)

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the difference between them and you spenser, is that I hated you before everyone else hated you, and now I like you while everyone else hates you.

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Sorry to hear that kyle....Let us know if you need anything cool? If you're ever in colorado i'll buy your ass a beer!

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yeah i buy you a beer and a hooker man

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I'm planning on being in the denver area late in june/ early in july. where are you dragon?

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sorry to hear about what happen. ive been through very similar ---- with my dad. just know that that everything will pass. just concentrate on your life, get your ---- together and dont let other people, no matter who they are, bring you down. :)

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I'm in westminster, a little north of denver. Let me know, and i'll take you to hooters and get you piss drunk, 21 or not.

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sorry to hear.....

PM me about the heater controls, i will give you money for them if they are the elecronic switching ones

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Damn that's harsh. My step Mom fell victim to Meth... she's never been the same. I wish ya the best man.

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Wow, that sounds all too familiar. My dad died when I was young and I was raised by my mom and whatever piece of ---- boyfriends she had. She was into the same ---- for a long long time. It sucks when you're just kicking it watching tv and all of the sudden cops come busting into the house, tearing everything apart, going through everything. It sucks even worse to watch your mom get hauled off in hand cuffs. I have been feeding myslef for as long as I can remember. There was never any food in the house because my mom didn't need food, she ran off meth. I spent so many years digging through her ---- when she wasn't looking trying to find her stash to get rid of it. It was like a game. I would sneak into her room and steal the ---- from her, then she would go crazy and act like she was cleaning my room, while digging through my ---- trying to find her drugs.
I know exactly what you're going through. I never wanted to tell my friends either. Who wants to tell their friends "My mom is a drug addict"? It's a shitty situation, but hopefully she gets smart and figures out what that ---- is doing to her and her family. My mom has been clean for about 5 years now. I still can't believe how fucked up she was back then, but she is a different person now. That ---- is very addictive and very hard to get off. If you know who the person is she gets it from, depending on who they are, have a talk with them, weather it be friendly, or violent. I always had an older brother and insane friends, so that helped.

I wish you and your mom luck. Just don't turn your back on her. Make sure she knows you still love her and you want her to sober up. Keep us posted, if you feel comfortable.
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kyle man, just hop in your b16 and drive to the next hmt meet

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People need to hit rock bottom in order to realize there is a problem and start the road to recovery. Nobody in this world is perfect and everybody fucks up, who cares what other people think about your family. Good luck with everything...

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well i will be no where near denver this june or july. but if you ever swing by ohio or if your going to the florida meet all see you there. And im serious i will buy you a beer and a hooker. if there no $20 hooker i'll get you a porno. I hope that made you smile keep your head up playa.
-Jaisun-