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How often do you think about ending it?

It crosses my mind atleast twice daily. Probably for the last 6 years of my life or so. I just never man up enough to do it. I actually get a strong, vivid picture of it in my head....laid out on the bathroom floor with an empty bottle of xanax next to me, blowing the roof off of my head and car in the driveway, slowly walking out infront of a truck on a dark country road.....etc. When you spend most of your life scuffing around not being noticed or appreciated, you begin to wonder if you belong here, then you wonder who you're going to hurt by being gone and then you wonder if you can go on for a few more days hoping ---- gets better but it never does. Oh well.

No, this isn't a hmt cry for attention or a suicidal "please stop me" ------bitch thing, just wondering if this is normal thinking. I wont do it (self-preservation mechanism works just fine!) but i sure do think about it often and what it would be like.

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Do it outside. It'll maintain the property value.

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I think you need to get your head straight.

Or have a Red Dwarf marathon for a weekend and not think about anything else. Just currey and dark beer. ;D

Just an idea Red Dwarf always seem to cure any of my blues well as long as a some Becks Dark in hand. ;D

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Damn
Thats kinda fucked up

We had a car in the impound that was used in a suicide. Dude bought 3 charcoal grills, put two in the back seat and one in the front, ate some pills and lit the grills. Imagine a lincoln towncar filled with smoke stains and bloody throw up in the driver seat next to where the guy was sitting

:X :X :X

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+1, they guy that used to manage the old business in my shop blew his brains out in a van in the parking lot, he didn't want to do it in the building cause it would have pissed off the owner.

I think its normal to think about that ----, but doing it is lame.

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Never

You know what man? ---- OTHER PEOPLE!!!

I appreciate myself, other people really have no bearing or effect on my life whatsoever (although alot of them try to), you need to stop being a ----- and looking for a "reason" to go on, or trying to fit in with the mindless robots that don't notice you, what value does their approval really offer you anyway?

Figure out what you want in life and go do it, to hell with what anyone else thinks, then you will be appreciated.

Theres your ------- reason to go on living.

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This thread needs Dr. Phil and porn

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and a box of razor blades

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i think its normal at times

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http://s41.photobucket.com/albums/e2...t=4233a508.flv

---- i remember this as a kid

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Your not abnormal for thinking it, because I think almost everyone does from time to time. But I don't think its a normal thing to dwell on all the time. You may want to consider seeing your family doctor. Alot of people who have these thoughts are going through some depression. Just remember suicide is a permanent solution to problems that are usually temporary in nature.

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i remember that

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I've thought about it before but, i'm to much of a ----- to do it ever. Plus i think suicide is really selfish. Usually when that ---- pops into my head i'm kinda depressed or stressed out about some sort of situation but, it passes and its only like twice a month MAYBE that it ever comes into my mind. If you're thinking about it as often as you are, you should really seek a therapist.

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go out in a blaze of glory, do something insane for no apparent reason invloving ak47's and a massive shootout, that way you'll be remembered.

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It makes no sense to me why you would commit suicide by just shooting yourself thats the dumbest thing iv ever heard. If your going to do something retard like that why not get a ---- ton of credit cards loans buy everything you want ---- all the chicks you can kill every person you hate and ------- have yourself a great time. :6 :6 :6 :6 :6

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he hates you

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Its normal people think about it all the time.

Personally I don't think about suicide, but I do think about killing a MASS amount of people EVERY SINGLE DAY. Everywhere I go like the mall, grocery store, gym, walmart, even watching T.V, etc. I'm always like I wish I can kill all these people. So don't worry its okay. Plus I had a great life before a lot of personal things happen to me, but I ain't tripping and I'm not even thinking about suicide just mass murders. Ill tell you right now, if I can get away with it I would do it in a heartbeat. If it were up to me I would bring the human population down to about 500 million.

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yea man my girl tried to kill herself by overdosing on some pills one time at work when we worked at the same place together and she didn't tell me until we got to work and she started getting sick...anyways it was crazy she got transported to the hospital in a ambulance stayed in the hospital over night on suicide watch(she had to drink that charcoal stuff). then was took to another hospital the next day and put in the nut-house for a week..(it was almost like she was in prison, or somthing) she regrets all of it. she was just really stressed out and depressed from work/life. i never thought something like that would ever happen to me we even have a 18month old baby... but you might need some counseling... i get stressed about money alot but i just keep thinking we get our TAX return soon and maybe a stimulance check too

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No its not, I think about dying before I have accomplished everything that i would like to do in my life, like "what if I only live for anouther couple of years... then I won't be able to......" and that drives me to not waste time on stupid ---- anymore, I certainly wouldn't throw away my life (intentionally) because I have too many problems or whatever, you only get one shot at life so why not try and make the most of it?

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Some of the "shoot up the mall" stories interest me, but then I realize that the last remaining human on earth will be a 29 yr old white guy, and it just so happens I fit the muthafukkken bill. :6 What I gotta worry bout nigga?

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Its your life you do what you want with it I guess.

No matter how shitty your life is, divorce, bankruptcy, stress. Someone out there has it worse than you.

The only excuse for suicide for me would be health reasons. Ive thought about it, If i had cancer, or some other terminal illness that was beyond treatable, I would only then off myself.

And it wouldnt be some shitty way like hanging myself or blowing my brains out. I would cut the muffler off behind the rear axle, take a hole saw to the trunk floor and reweld the exhaust with some piping to flow inside the trunk. You put the rear seats down, Be sure to leave a note, pop in your favorite CD, Turn the car on and go to sleep. Clean and easy.

In an extreme case, maybe strap a vest full of explosives, parachute into a crowded fleamarket in iran and press the button and blow myself up, I probably wouldnt feel a thing.

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you should made a writeup on the whole exhaust/suicide thing. make sure it gets stickied for the noobs.

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I never think about suicide. It might be normal for people without pronounced sociopathic tendencies to dwell on it, but that ain't me.

I think about killing people, too, only it's specific people whose genetics need cleansed from the earth. I want all the stupid or lazy people to die which is only three quarters of the population. It's certainly not normal to want to kill everyone, though, you should seek help dude. You're seriously fucked up. :3

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You know, i typed a bunch of ---- that nobody was going to read anyway about 6 times.

I think i need a legal, prescribed anti-depressant crutch....and fast.

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well man if anyone, we are all here for you. don't go down that road

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Start smoking pot and all the problems will float away . . .

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x2 lol

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Id probably want to kill myself to if I owned a Rotary :P

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lol.

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same here. there isn't a day that goes by where i think to myself as i'm looking at some absolute fuckup and say in my head "you know, if that person where never to be found again, the world would be a better place, etc.". it's too bad government sanctioned murder isn't legal on u.s. soil unless you're a cop.

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Suicide is not an option... However... Homicide is.

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I think about killing other people for specific reasons regularly. I never think about killing myself sometimes I imagine getting in an accident and getting killed but. Ive got to much work left to do. I haven't got to do the real things I actually want to get done yet, Like
Become a politician grab power Hitler style take over the entire world and ban religion. Oh yeah I want to invent time travel and some type of gene therapy that turns off aging. You know single handedly push humanity toward a survivable future. I'd also like to invent a horny ----- detector. You know looks like a wrist watch but you look at it in a bar and it'll point out the chic thats ready to put out. That alone would change the world....OP Think about it if you had my ----- detector wrist watch why the ---- would you want to die?? and it's coming in the future thats something to live for.

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short answer..

if i didnt think i would go to hell.. id prolly have offed myself a long time ago

long answer..

if i wasn't religious.. id prolly sell everything i own and develop a system to take out the scum of the ------- earth.. shankings.. or sniper rifle.. or drive by bombing.. or ------- zip tie there neck with a big ass zip tie till they suffocate.. killing people who deserve to ------- die.. scum of trhe ------- earth... id have a baggy of cyanide sewn somewhere in my mouth or ---- so i have easy access incase i get caught or some other tooth

i think i read somewhere that someone once had a fake tooth with poison in it that he pulled out with his tongue and crunched it up

ive seen alot of fucked up ---- in my life.. so many injustices id love to ------- right...

booya :8

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To answer your question, NO. Thoughts of suicide are not normal and are a sign that your life is in disrepair and or you are physiologically/mentally unstable. But that is obvious at this point.

I don't think about harming or killing myself. My life isn't a utopia ballet of kind people, over-abundance, and constant successes devoid of challenges, but I manage to go through it with my chin up.

There are times I get angry at the injustices in the world and enraged at the way people treat me or others I care about. I even entertain (ever so briefly), thoughts of whipping ass and going ballistic on people, but think that's just a mental pressure relief valve so I can regain composure and confront a situation with a level head. I would like to think I have a good, solid moral compass integrated into my hardware and it tells me instinctively that violence and havoc are not acceptable ways of operating as a human being.

Bottom line: Harming yourself or others is not, nor should it be conceived as normal. If these thoughts occur on a daily basis, you NEED to seek professional help. There are people in practice that specialize in these matters and more acutely, tell a close friend or family member what is going on with you. Regardless of how bleak things seem there are people that care about you.

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Buk

Drive by bombing? Haha


That zip tie ---- is gangster I have though about being the zip tie killer

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It would be more gangster if he could pull it off without shooting himself in the foot first. :l

j/k

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---- you. I'll kill you.

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i couldnt have said it better myself. i never think about killing my self. i worry more about just plain dying. ur a ----- bitch that needs to grow the ---- up. where i live i dont look the norm. im not the norm to my inlaws either. hell they used to hate on me becuase they thought it would get to me.
and where i work if u dont look like a redneck or are black u get no respect watso ever. i could build 5 transmissions in one day at work and wouldnt even get the nod but the redneck or black guy would get a ------ gift card. it donest bother me at all.


or maybe its that fact taht u think about killing urself that is keeping u from being noticed. as you said u think about it twice a day but for how long. if i thought about killing my self while working it would ---- up my routine and then i damn sure wouldnt be noticed for ----. ya know,

stop thinkin about that lame ----, lil bitch grow up. if u keep thinkin about it myabe u will and that will free up some oxygen and wat not

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I would never /myself. The world needs more people like me. I ------- rock.

I think that if I did snap, I would not feel any moral qualms about killing others though. For the betterment of mankind, there are some on this earth that are nothing more than a waste of flesh.

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http://i43.tinypic.com/352euj7.jpg

Sums up the struggle of life pretty well I think.