Tom-Guy

5mg Dexedrine twice daily, doc gave me a script for enough to do 10 mg twice daily if I feel the need.


Little excerpt from my post about it to a mailling list yesterday, circa midafternoon:

"Pros:

Towards lunch I was feeling jittery, almost didn't take the second
dose. Glad I did. I feel totally calm and relaxed now. Occurs to me
my normal state is jittery. I usually have to avoid people/stimulus
for a day or two to feel this calm and centered.

I'm not positive, but my sugar cravings are less than normal.
Couldn't finish a whole bottle of root beer earlier, the only raw
sugar I was going to let myself have today.

Social phobia is lessened. Well, I can't say I have social phobia,
per se, but I try to shut down extraneous inputs such as people so I
can focus on inanimate objects when I'm trying to do something
functional. People just distract me and get me off on tangents worse
than if I'm left alone. More of a semi-autistic condition if
anything. I digress. I was able to make eye contact and talk to an
acqauintance or two without getting off on tangents, although I was a
bit chattier than usual. It's still an amphetamine, with amphetamine
like side effects... symptomatic treatment and not a cure, as I'm
sure hobot would agree.

I called and rescheduled a tuning appointment so I could get house
chores done and clean my car out. I've gotten a decent amount of
stuff done, with a minimum of running around. I didn't even work hard
at it, just spend fifteen minutes here and there between watching the
Lain eps I downloaded recently.

I can sleep on this dose. I'm feeling warm and fuzzy right now,
considering taking another nap. I wonder if amphetamines hinder REM
sleep? Doctor told me of two cases she treats where the patients have
to take meds to go to bed, so I'm guessing not.




Side effects:

Chemical taste in my mouth has subsided somewhat, to be replaced with
dry mouth :/. Makes it hard to speak to someone if I don't find some
water or try to get the saliva flowing prior to social encounters.

My stomache has a ghost of the stomache feeling minithins used to give
me back in the High School Days. Big lunch didn't help with that at
all, but at least the feeling didn't hurt my appetite.



Cons:

My hand/eye coordination is definitely impacted. My hands are pretty
steady today, they are most of the time since I cut back on sugar
intake, but it took me a minute to fumble with my cash when I went out
for cleaning supplies earlier.

I noticed a slight difficultly "spotting" a hole in traffic to pull
out into when exiting the parking lot. But it wasn't annoying as I
was content to wait for a decent opening instead of johnny boyracering
around like I usually do. I feel like I was safe on the roadway, but
my edge was definitely not there. I don't think I could have avoided
some accidents where my normal reflexes would have.




Conclusions:

I think this is going to work for now. It's not a panacea, but it's
taken the edge off and then some. I can see a couple areas to work on
skills I was unable to previously develop. For example, I possess
very poor organizational skills, but at least I can halfassed organize
things with effort."



Now, the plot thickens. Went out last night with some friends. Took three beers to catch a buzz and I didn't crave alcohol as much which I guess was okay since I was driving. I still felt totally relaxed and at ease, surrounded by people I don't know. Oh, yeh, met a nice girl. I think the purple earmuffs are hot.





Cliff notes:

I suck 30% less at life due to hard drugs.

Tatakai

what are you taking the drugs for seems to be working for you though

90dx

Holy ----

Tom-Guy

Attention Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder aka ADHD.

Had dinner with my mom last night, she burst out into tears because I was calm, lucid, and she felt like she'd failed me by not putting me on speed as a kid. It's that profound a change.

MikeJ-2009

Damn, so you're like that kid with down syndrom that uses big words and uses hard drugs?


Wait, I got one for your girlfriend....

"Where my bazeball!!!!!"

buk9tp

u should THANK her for not putting u on speed as a kid..

and lower the ------- dose so it doesnt effect you as much.. try less than 5mg.. keep that ---- with someone you trust too.. cause i dont think i would even trust myself with that ----.. make sure this person isnt a druggie..

im all for this.. but no need for u to get dependant on the drug.. and then have to go through withdrawl.. which i went through with my epilepsy medicine when i ------- quit.. i couldnt even take one more pill.. cause that ---- had me laid out..

if i was near you right now.. i would prolly sneak a sucker punch.. and then proceed to knee you as hard as i can in your *****.. till u start spewing up blood..

im telling you right now.. sure.. it feels good.. first couple months. i went almost a year... but then.. your going to regret it.. and curse the day u took it the first time..

cliffnotes.. ---- OFF THE DRUG YOU DONT NEED IT.

Tom-Guy

Buk, you do realize my brain chemistry is different? Low dosages of amphetamines *calm me down*. I don't fidget when I sit still, my mind does not race, I manage to remember what I was talking about when I forget midsentence (!), the ---- actually makes me feel drowsy.

----, I got SO MUCH DONE yesterday between netsurfing, watching anime, two naps, taking a lot of little breaks and generally being a lazy ----. And I can remember it all. Do you have any idea what it's like living on a tangent, in the moment, with no long term memory?

Frankly, I am tempted to go with 10 mg twice daily based on how I felt yesterday afternoon, but I'm going to do a week at 5 mg twice daily to get a feel for it.

jinxy

I'll give you 10 points for word use. I havent seen panacea used in awhile. And when you say autisim, you mean more along the lines of asperger syndrome correct? I do all of the things you mentioned that your trying to cure by taking the amphetamine, but I dont think I would like to be on them. I kinda think that being like this is what gives me my edge.

88crxSi

"Theres something about engines that just calms me down"

davcivic

That's actually funny......

Doctors know better than we do, when it comes to health. I mean they are not perfect, but they know more. If you are feeling better, great, it is never too late to make changes, so good for you.

Now you'll feel what we, the regular people, have been talking about for years :1