startling ---- that i got in the mail.
07-07-2005, 12:20 PM
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startling ---- that i got in the mail.
Well... most of you know if you an og what my problems used to be long ago. going through depression most of my life and not doing achademically kinda made me really quit on life. i mean growing up sooo damn hard.
i Got my full psych, and achademic records from school. its about a half in worth of papers starting from grade 7 till ... 11th grade. ---- didnt really turn out too well for me and i was thrown in a learning support class. it wasnt really special ed cus well.... im not special ed, i was just in a learning support. the thing is, i was treated like i wasnt smart at all so i furtherd my problems by not doing anything. i never would do school work or homework. i would just throw it away.
so flipping through he long list of papers i found my iq tables. there was mumbo jumbo written on it. it basically said that the cause of my dillema was lack of motivation. plain and simple. the highest score i got on my iq tables was about a 135. whih is pretty high. the thing i had problems with was basic skills. my motor skills, my verbal skill, and all my other skills where SUPERB. but the little skills like spelling, mathematical, and just basic school ---- was way below sub par. like a 35 grade avg.
i dont know what happened, but i guess ... well i dont know how i really changed. i just started seeing things for the better i guess. i mean i just started trying new things and it worked so i was excited, and my motivation to tackle ---- came in by leaps and bounds. even though i now have friend in the real world, i can say that HMT as helped me allot. its strange but the ridicule and all the torment you bastards caused me kinda forced my eyes open. this made me realise things and ---- started getting better. i am now comfortable calling women or talkiung on the phone and or meeting women.
the main thing that really changed me was college. just the lack of childeish bullshit made me feel way better.
now as im typing this, the main thing that helped me out was greece. so it was my decision to move to greece after school is over in a couple years. maybee two or three. hoipefully hmt wouldnt have became overbloated and become over run by newbs and ---- and if im still a member and if jeff still cares about this place, then i dont know.
o well i just feel kinda weird about getting all my papers. kinda makes me feel good to reflect how my life changed.
i Got my full psych, and achademic records from school. its about a half in worth of papers starting from grade 7 till ... 11th grade. ---- didnt really turn out too well for me and i was thrown in a learning support class. it wasnt really special ed cus well.... im not special ed, i was just in a learning support. the thing is, i was treated like i wasnt smart at all so i furtherd my problems by not doing anything. i never would do school work or homework. i would just throw it away.
so flipping through he long list of papers i found my iq tables. there was mumbo jumbo written on it. it basically said that the cause of my dillema was lack of motivation. plain and simple. the highest score i got on my iq tables was about a 135. whih is pretty high. the thing i had problems with was basic skills. my motor skills, my verbal skill, and all my other skills where SUPERB. but the little skills like spelling, mathematical, and just basic school ---- was way below sub par. like a 35 grade avg.
i dont know what happened, but i guess ... well i dont know how i really changed. i just started seeing things for the better i guess. i mean i just started trying new things and it worked so i was excited, and my motivation to tackle ---- came in by leaps and bounds. even though i now have friend in the real world, i can say that HMT as helped me allot. its strange but the ridicule and all the torment you bastards caused me kinda forced my eyes open. this made me realise things and ---- started getting better. i am now comfortable calling women or talkiung on the phone and or meeting women.
the main thing that really changed me was college. just the lack of childeish bullshit made me feel way better.
now as im typing this, the main thing that helped me out was greece. so it was my decision to move to greece after school is over in a couple years. maybee two or three. hoipefully hmt wouldnt have became overbloated and become over run by newbs and ---- and if im still a member and if jeff still cares about this place, then i dont know.
o well i just feel kinda weird about getting all my papers. kinda makes me feel good to reflect how my life changed.
07-07-2005, 12:28 PM
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Re: startling ---- that i got in the mail.
Originally Posted by samson
God bless, Kain. Glad to hear it. Everyone learns differently.
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i think the main thing that fucked me up was puberty odly enough. like i didnt understand how dating worked at all. i originally thaught that if you talked to a girl and liked her, just ask her to go to the movies, and she would more than likely say yes. thats what all my buddys told me to do. well... nothing ever happened. infact i got stabbed by a couple females. that really fucked up my psyche and i just thaiught that i wasnt good enough for anything. so i basically gave up on trying anything. like i was really badly into depression where i wouldnt eat for day at a time. i looked really bad. like i was skinny as ---- and deteriorated. like for example i saw an old pic of me while i wqas going through this ---- and.. well... i didnt recognise myself it was soo bad.
07-07-2005, 12:43 PM
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Re: startling ---- that i got in the mail.
I was a lot like you man.
No girls would really talk to me. I had a few friends, but they were mostly artificial and I would only talk to in class. I got depressed, gained some weight and kinda shut myself off from the rest of the world. It took something very drastic to change me, and that was the death of someone really close to me. Once she died I realized that you only have so much time in this world, and you need to make the most of it. For some reason this change in my life totally flipped everything right around and I turned into a completely different person.
I always look back at pictures of myself from middleschool/early highschool and see how much I've changed and it scares me that ~5 years ago I was a completely different person. Makes me feel good too seeing how much I changed and that it was for the better.
The way I see it is that everybody can change, and you basically have to make it right because ---- won't always work out the same.
No girls would really talk to me. I had a few friends, but they were mostly artificial and I would only talk to in class. I got depressed, gained some weight and kinda shut myself off from the rest of the world. It took something very drastic to change me, and that was the death of someone really close to me. Once she died I realized that you only have so much time in this world, and you need to make the most of it. For some reason this change in my life totally flipped everything right around and I turned into a completely different person.
I always look back at pictures of myself from middleschool/early highschool and see how much I've changed and it scares me that ~5 years ago I was a completely different person. Makes me feel good too seeing how much I changed and that it was for the better.
The way I see it is that everybody can change, and you basically have to make it right because ---- won't always work out the same.
07-07-2005, 12:48 PM
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Re: startling ---- that i got in the mail.
What a waste of my time. Next time post something worth reading.... not about how you were slow in school, and are still slow now..... all you've realized is the same thing that every teen goes through..... It's called realizing reality... that all you are is mediocore at best, and that life is a dissapointment 
07-07-2005, 12:50 PM
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Re: startling ---- that i got in the mail.
Originally Posted by Spenser
What a waste of my time. Next time post something worth reading.... not about how you were slow in school, and are still slow now..... all you've realized is the same thing that every teen goes through..... It's called realizing reality... that all you are is mediocore at best, and that life is a dissapointment
Don't bring others down because you were like that too and just won't admit it. NO ONE will agree with you here. Not even Hotrex.
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07-07-2005, 12:51 PM
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Re: startling ---- that i got in the mail.
Originally Posted by Spenser
What a waste of my time. Next time post something worth reading.... not about how you were slow in school, and are still slow now..... all you've realized is the same thing that every teen goes through..... It's called realizing reality... that all you are is mediocore at best, and that life is a dissapointment
