1991civicsi

3am I get a phone call that my 38 year old big brother died in his sleep. He was an artist living in NYC.
We have to wait about 2 months for the toxicology report to determine the cause of death.
I had to be the one to tell my parents the bad news, it was the worst feeling.
My friends and family have been very supportive.
IDK what else to say, he was very unique, and taught me so much. He was always so proud of me, he used to show me off to his friends and say "this is my brother", with a big grin. Im going to miss him so much its so hard to never hear him or see him anymore.
I dont want to depress anyone, I know I need to communicate whats going on with me, b/c I tend to shut down, sleep, or not deal with it.

QikEnuF

Damn dude, sorry to hear that.

90accordIHI

sucks for your loss man, we had to pronounce a lady dead on her ******* yesterday, at least your bro went in his sleep

1991civicsi

Thanks brother, that made me laugh.

RedCavz

sorry for your loss bro. keep your head up

88dx

ONDUHFLO

At least u kno he's keeping a seat warm for you up there bro. Sucks to lose a family member....My brother was a stillborn, and i was still pretty sad about it, I couldnt imagine getting to know him my whole life and then having to tell my folks hes gone. Just stay strong man.

1991civicsi

My friends have told me that they are my brothers, and that is comforting for me to know.
Thanks for the words of encouragement, every bit helps.

90dx

Well at least it was peaceful way to go. Sorry to hear that keep your head up.

Smith-02

tough luck. i guess it's better to die quietly, than on life support and in agony for months on end