Tatakai

don't give a ---- if i sound like a -----.

so basically, i've got nothing going for me in life, except a girl who is also my best friend. recently/soon to be convited of a major crime, car was totaled, ppl giving me ---- at school, very close to not graduating (and just a month away) in debt $3k and growing, etc etc. and basically, this girl who i care about a lot and cares a lot about me too, is scared to be with me for a couple minor reasons that she could get over.. but the main thing is my "immaturity" i guess you could call it. i'm basically unable to do homework and take care of business like that. i completely flaked on a peice of my senior project that was due today and basically wouldn't have even done it if she hadn't come over at 10pm to do it for me. but I really hate homework, like i've had my ---- sitting here in front of me the last 45 minutes knowing I HAVE to do it, in order to 1) graduate, and 2) be with her. we've been good friends for 4 years, and the un-spoken feelings have always been there, and just recently it's been open. she has a bf though.. but it's mostly to please her parents- he's the same ethnicity as she is, and so obviously that makes her parents proud.

so basically, I need to change into someone who can do their own ----.. but i have no idea how. it's not like I can fake it, because I really hate hwk. classes with no homework I get B's and A's in. any idea's on how to make myself do homework so i can graduate and finally ---- this girl? my mom's tried taking away my tv, xbox and computer, and basically I sit in bed and sleep or sit and be bored rather than do my ------- homework.

i don't know what to do, i've basically hit rock bottom. killed a 6 pack of corona by myself last night, just for ***** n giggles.

Ravage70

---- it, go rape a hooker

beaker

on a serious note......i use to feel exactly like you do now. the best advise i can give you..........

if you think youve hit rock bottom......you can only go up from here

IntaCooler

go climb a mountain...


im serious u'll feel better, and if not....well hey you can always jump off afterwards


j/p we all go through gay stages in life, just ride the wave

Oscar

you gota spend lots of time thinking. just thinking of anything. prioritizing, finding out whats imortant in your life right now and for the future. nothing we say will help you unless you want to get better. its all in your mind.

Tatakai

that's what my mom keeps telling me

see that's whats hard. i want to graduate, i want to be with her (like, for a long time, possibly even forever), i want to be successful. but im not up to doing all the work that's required to get there

zplightning

I agree, I was a lot like you and never did ---- even though I needed to do it.

It almost sounds like the fact you know you need to do ---- almost seems like you are doing this as a cry for help. You need motivation, such as the fact that you aren't gonna be with this girl, you aren't gonna get very far without a HS degree, etc. I also think that girlfriends can be a huge unmotivator at this age.

Anyways, you will figure it out, maybe you just need a big scare to get you there, I did, and am now doing quite well as a junior at WWU...

P.Heez

Everyone feels "senioritis" during senior projects and the end of high school. Its normal. I hated homework all of highschool, and i still do in college, but its something you just kind of learn to deal with, and don't worry about having a kickass senior project because if you have made it to the point of having a senior project, there is almost no way you will fail your senior year... there are good times and bad times in life, and when you have experienced a few bad times, the good are just that much better when they roll your way
pain it temporary, victory is forever.

salesmonkey

just do what it takes to graduate. im sure you got stupider and lazier people around you passing. why shouldnt you pass. its just going to complicate things more if you just dont pass. have your gf come call you up every night to make sure your done with your homework. your thinking to much of this girl too. remember if she lets you down your going to hate her, and shes not going to be your best friend. do it for yourself and your future. stop thinking about everything else happening in your life and just GIT ER DONE

GenLx

you are in high school. high school is ------- retarded, trust me, things get a lot better outside of that hell hole. honestly, work your *** off for your next two months, graduate and drive off giving it the bird and know you can only go places once you are out of it. btw a quick check up with your doc about depression would probably be in order...