2GeclipseRST

Word. My aunt is a lawyer and we're getting ---- straight now. Already talked to a judge. As long as i stay on my meds, go to treatment and dont do anything stupid i should be fine. We'll work something out. I say it's over between the two of us but maybe if she agree's to go to counseling or a treatment program (medicaid tax dollars will pay for it, for sure and i hope the judge makes her go) we can get along. Maybe not get back together but get along for our kid's sake. It's tough to throw 4 years away. It wasnt all bad but we're toxic for eachother and that will effect our kid if we're together like this, too quick. Maybe stuff wont work out and she wont get better and will just stay the same materialistic person that worries about how other people (friends and her racist *** mom) will judge her and distorts ---- in her head to make it acceptable for them to make her feel like a helpless victim all the time. Maybe she'll grow a set of *****, realize she has a problem upstairs herself and get help for it. I can't make her do anything and i'm not talking to her about squat.

It was hard as ---- to go into my room, see our baby's bassonet, empty. See the bed, empty. See all the pictures of us gone.... Go on my myspace and see pictures of the three of us together. I mean, that ---- is rough. I miss gaming with the munchkin, letting her fall asleep on my chest while watching a movie, fart and stink up the room and laugh about it like she knows what she did was funny......

It may just be me but when you find someone that you think is the one, start a family you think will be everlasting and forever and it all blows up over soo much stuff that doesn't make any sense it makes you start to question yourself, other people, humanity. All kinds of stuff.

I can't sleep in that bed. I think i might grab a blanket, my ipod, try to play some of that forza 2 ---- my brother got and pass out. I've gotta go to cvs early and pick up my prescription before work. I should request leave but if i dont stay busy (to cold lately to work on the rx7), i'll think and you can only think so many positive thoughts for so long, you know?

Some of you guys are pretty bitter and direct. Didn't you ever think that's not always the best way to approach things for everyone? I think i was pretty bitter and direct in telling her to gtfo instead of asking her if she wanted to stay with her mom and dad for a while. I just got cornered and that was the first thing that popped out of my head, wether i meant it or not is too late. You can get your point across without being a ******** and that's what i'm trying to learn to do more often.

Stealthmode is right. All that matters is the head on your shoulders and what you want to do with your life.


You've been through it. I'm going through it now. Really, the only thing that is going to get me through this is time and just trying to enjoy my life as much as possible and not let stuff keep me down.

Tom-Guy

Throw it away or burn it. Don't let it sit around for a week before you do it, just do it.

It's not bitter, it's reality. It's not direct so much as it's not being a pushover.

She wanted to leave and was inventing any old reason and any old drama to accomplish that. Nothing wrong with cutting to the chase and telling her to gtfo. You express all of the signs of a guy who kept trying, kudos for having heart, but when she doesn't meet you in the middle then you're wasting your time and the best thing to do is end it. There's a reason why you can't sleep in your old bed because it ***** with you, yet she's gone without a second thought. You need to start being less goddamn understanding of others and more protective of yourself. Feelings are great and all but what the ---- good are they when they make you act like a jackass?

You can be cool if she can be cool, but if she can't be cool then you need to be cold. There is now and always will be a wall between you, at the same time she's family and treating her any other way will ---- up your kid and/or your relationship with your kid. This is not a bad thing. Be the mature one in the relationship, and don't ever lose your temper.

It's going to be hard on you until you grow some goddamn self-respect and develop confidence in who and what you are, the price you pay for these things is measured in years. My babymomma is about as logical as yours so I know the exact path you will be walking, and while I've already told you it's the hardest thing you'll ever do I don't have a whole lot of sympathy for you. First, you chose to impregnate the ----- despite the woman it's attached to displaying signs of being defective. Second, you haven't figured out that love is great and all but it doesn't make anything better nor should you expect it to. You have feelings but they are YOURS and don't change who/what other people are, do, or want, so getting butthurt when someone you love acts like a fool means you don't have a basic understanding of how things work. Third, your pain is not unique, it's there to let you know not to get attached to irrational bitches. Are you beginning to understand this?

Men are supposed to be strong, and self reliant, and you're going to find this out the hard way. You better not ---- it up for your kid's sake.

89shithatch

JD your older than i thought. you grandpa. haha

Tough-guy

This thread is ------- depressing. Now I want to off myself.




O.P. Good thing you are getting the help you need. The baby needs a dad, especially if the mama is a f'ed up as you say.

Darkelvis

man up, get your help, and get custody of your kid.

sewell94

I'm prolly the only one here who doesn't think suicide is the ----- way out, you have to seriously have something wrong to kill yourself. I'm not talking about people who attempted to kill themselves for attention, i'm talking about people that have actually done it. Very different things. To intentionally overcome your own defense mechanism to fight to live, that may be the hardest thing anyone could have to overcome. I'm not strong enough to do that, i doubt anyone here is.

sewell94

Another thing people do is make bullets out of sand, nothing to match the gun to.

Tom-Guy

+1

Everything I said without all the words. Do it, man.