despite all the good that goes on in your life.....
01-10-2009, 05:31 PM
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despite all the good that goes on in your life.....
How often do you think about ending it?
It crosses my mind atleast twice daily. Probably for the last 6 years of my life or so. I just never man up enough to do it. I actually get a strong, vivid picture of it in my head....laid out on the bathroom floor with an empty bottle of xanax next to me, blowing the roof off of my head and car in the driveway, slowly walking out infront of a truck on a dark country road.....etc. When you spend most of your life scuffing around not being noticed or appreciated, you begin to wonder if you belong here, then you wonder who you're going to hurt by being gone and then you wonder if you can go on for a few more days hoping ---- gets better but it never does. Oh well.
No, this isn't a hmt cry for attention or a suicidal "please stop me" ------bitch thing, just wondering if this is normal thinking. I wont do it (self-preservation mechanism works just fine!) but i sure do think about it often and what it would be like.
It crosses my mind atleast twice daily. Probably for the last 6 years of my life or so. I just never man up enough to do it. I actually get a strong, vivid picture of it in my head....laid out on the bathroom floor with an empty bottle of xanax next to me, blowing the roof off of my head and car in the driveway, slowly walking out infront of a truck on a dark country road.....etc. When you spend most of your life scuffing around not being noticed or appreciated, you begin to wonder if you belong here, then you wonder who you're going to hurt by being gone and then you wonder if you can go on for a few more days hoping ---- gets better but it never does. Oh well.
No, this isn't a hmt cry for attention or a suicidal "please stop me" ------bitch thing, just wondering if this is normal thinking. I wont do it (self-preservation mechanism works just fine!) but i sure do think about it often and what it would be like.
01-10-2009, 05:41 PM
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Re: despite all the good that goes on in your life.....
I think you need to get your head straight.
Or have a Red Dwarf marathon for a weekend and not think about anything else. Just currey and dark beer.
Just an idea Red Dwarf always seem to cure any of my blues well as long as a some Becks Dark in hand.
Or have a Red Dwarf marathon for a weekend and not think about anything else. Just currey and dark beer.
Just an idea Red Dwarf always seem to cure any of my blues well as long as a some Becks Dark in hand.
01-10-2009, 05:51 PM
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Re: despite all the good that goes on in your life.....
Damn
Thats kinda fucked up
We had a car in the impound that was used in a suicide. Dude bought 3 charcoal grills, put two in the back seat and one in the front, ate some pills and lit the grills. Imagine a lincoln towncar filled with smoke stains and bloody throw up in the driver seat next to where the guy was sitting
Thats kinda fucked up
We had a car in the impound that was used in a suicide. Dude bought 3 charcoal grills, put two in the back seat and one in the front, ate some pills and lit the grills. Imagine a lincoln towncar filled with smoke stains and bloody throw up in the driver seat next to where the guy was sitting
01-10-2009, 06:15 PM
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Re: despite all the good that goes on in your life.....
Originally Posted by Stealthmode
Do it outside. It'll maintain the property value.
I think its normal to think about that ----, but doing it is lame.
01-10-2009, 09:07 PM
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Re: despite all the good that goes on in your life.....
Originally Posted by 2GeclipseRST
How often do you think about ending it?
Originally Posted by 2GeclipseRST
When you spend most of your life scuffing around not being noticed or appreciated, you begin to wonder if you belong here, then you wonder who you're going to hurt by being gone and then you wonder if you can go on for a few more days hoping ---- gets better but it never does. Oh well.
I appreciate myself, other people really have no bearing or effect on my life whatsoever (although alot of them try to), you need to stop being a ----- and looking for a "reason" to go on, or trying to fit in with the mindless robots that don't notice you, what value does their approval really offer you anyway?
Figure out what you want in life and go do it, to hell with what anyone else thinks, then you will be appreciated.
Theres your ------- reason to go on living.
01-10-2009, 10:24 PM
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Re: despite all the good that goes on in your life.....
