Any one else here who needs a padded room?(just venting!!)
#31
Re: Any one else here who needs a padded room?(just venting!!)
Originally Posted by BirdmanMD
i have insomnia and ocd. My freinds are like "your not obsessive about anything, what do you mean?". then they come to my house and i HAVE to organize ----. its horrible. i cant concentrate unless everything is where it needs to be. That mixed with being up all night due to insomnia sucks.
But my house is really clean.
And to anyone who thinks they suffer from depression, smoke some salvia. youll feel good for a few days afterwards.
But my house is really clean.
And to anyone who thinks they suffer from depression, smoke some salvia. youll feel good for a few days afterwards.
No ---- I have OCD too
Im not a clean freak but i ------- freak out when someone moves something and i can find it.
My big thing its even numbers, all volume levels have to be a even number or a multiple of 5. Its like in my head 19 is to loud but 17 isn't loud enough. God help me if i have to be up in the morning because ill check my alarm clock about 15 times before i go to bed. I don't know when it started but i started making check list in my head and now i cant stop. If i don't check stuff before i leave my house ill keep asking myself if i did it or not. I feel a little crazy at times but i have been working on it with out any drugs.
Now when i turn up my stereo i just don't look at the numbers.
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#32
Re: Any one else here who needs a padded room?(just venting!!)
Originally Posted by SDRAWKCAB
No ---- I have OCD too
Im not a clean freak but i ------- freak out when someone moves something and i can find it.
My big thing its even numbers, all volume levels have to be a even number or a multiple of 5. Its like in my head 19 is to loud but 17 isn't loud enough. God help me if i have to be up in the morning because ill check my alarm clock about 15 times before i go to bed. I don't know when it started but i started making check list in my head and now i cant stop. If i don't check stuff before i leave my house ill keep asking myself if i did it or not. I feel a little crazy at times but i have been working on it with out any drugs.
Now when i turn up my stereo i just don't look at the numbers.
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I have a severe problem with food. i have to organize my food certain ways. you should see me with mcdonalds fries, it takes me almost 10 minutes to sort them by size and shape. I also have a problem walking around the house. i imagine in my mind that there is a line coming from all the corners and edges of walls and tables. i then cannot step over these lines. i dont have a problem stepping on cracks in tiles, but these imaginary lines debilitate me when walking around. its a weird problem and my doctor had never heard of a case like that. imaginary lines
#33
Re: Any one else here who needs a padded room?(just venting!!)
Originally Posted by SDRAWKCAB
No ---- I have OCD too
Im not a clean freak but i ------- freak out when someone moves something and i can find it.
My big thing its even numbers, all volume levels have to be a even number or a multiple of 5. Its like in my head 19 is to loud but 17 isn't loud enough. God help me if i have to be up in the morning because ill check my alarm clock about 15 times before i go to bed. I don't know when it started but i started making check list in my head and now i cant stop. If i don't check stuff before i leave my house ill keep asking myself if i did it or not. I feel a little crazy at times but i have been working on it with out any drugs.
Now when i turn up my stereo i just don't look at the numbers.
PROGRESS
#34
Re: Any one else here who needs a padded room?(just venting!!)
Originally Posted by Jorsher
I am a neat freak. Messes bug the ---- out of me. Fortunately, my laziness keeps the neatfreakishness at bay because I'm usually too ------- lazy to clean up and I just deal with the annoyance. And oddly I know what you mean about the volume...
Bridmanmd makes me feel better about myself no offence to him.lol
#35
Re: Any one else here who needs a padded room?(just venting!!)
your OCD freaks!!!!!!
I self medicate with beer and quit stressing.
I quit a job of 14 years making damn good money.......but the long hours and stress was causing panic attacks.
I would stay inside for DAYS only going out to get the mail/food/beer, and only when it was dark out.
Stress is a ****** FOCKER!
I self medicate with beer and quit stressing.
I quit a job of 14 years making damn good money.......but the long hours and stress was causing panic attacks.
I would stay inside for DAYS only going out to get the mail/food/beer, and only when it was dark out.
Stress is a ****** FOCKER!
#36
Re: Any one else here who needs a padded room?(just venting!!)
Originally Posted by Jorsher
I am a neat freak. Messes bug the ---- out of me. Fortunately, my laziness keeps the neatfreakishness at bay because I'm usually too ------- lazy to clean up and I just deal with the annoyance. And oddly I know what you mean about the volume...
I use to have social anxiety that flared up all of a sudden in the 7th grade. They had to put me on some kind of medication. Whatever the hell it was it made me mellow as hello. I just decided to quit taking it one day though and I felt like I was a damn heroin attack going through withdraw. Shaking, unbearable headache, pains, sweats, etc etc. Called the doc up and he said never quit it cold turkey. Ended up having to get off of it slowly.
#37
Re: Any one else here who needs a padded room?(just venting!!)
Originally Posted by SDRAWKCAB
No ---- I have OCD too
Im not a clean freak but i ------- freak out when someone moves something and i can find it.
My big thing its even numbers, all volume levels have to be a even number or a multiple of 5. Its like in my head 19 is to loud but 17 isn't loud enough. God help me if i have to be up in the morning because ill check my alarm clock about 15 times before i go to bed. I don't know when it started but i started making check list in my head and now i cant stop. If i don't check stuff before i leave my house ill keep asking myself if i did it or not. I feel a little crazy at times but i have been working on it with out any drugs.
Now when i turn up my stereo i just don't look at the numbers.
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OMG I do that. Not so bad anymore, but I used to check my alarm clock SEVERAL times to make sure it was on and make sure it was set for the correct time. Also have to turn the stereo up to an even number. Odd numbers will drive me crazy. When I order parts at work, I only order in either 6 or 12. Everything else is just weird. We're all freaks.
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#38
Re: Any one else here who needs a padded room?(just venting!!)
Wow guys, I really feel like I'm amongst family again. Havent felt like this on here in a while. Thanks.
Today is not a good day. I took a 3mg Lunesta last nite at 7PM and after I took it I freaked out and made my self throw it up. It didnt come out so I freaked out some more. In my mind I felt like I was going to sleep and probably never wake up . Lexipro blocked the panic attac but I was still freaking out. It kicked in quick and I slept till 2am. Been up since and I feel like I have a hangover...bad! I also feel dry and emotionless.
While laying in bed this morning I planned out how to go in the garage and quietly eat a bullet this morning . Then my son woke up and gave me a reason not to. My wife hid the guns before she left the house this morning. I checked before I left.
Gonna call the doctor at 9 and tell her to give me something else before I end up a statistic. I dont medicate very well and I know that my mind is constantly fighting the effects of the drug. Thats what ***** me up. I should feel happy while on this ---- but I dont.
Today is not a good day. I took a 3mg Lunesta last nite at 7PM and after I took it I freaked out and made my self throw it up. It didnt come out so I freaked out some more. In my mind I felt like I was going to sleep and probably never wake up . Lexipro blocked the panic attac but I was still freaking out. It kicked in quick and I slept till 2am. Been up since and I feel like I have a hangover...bad! I also feel dry and emotionless.
While laying in bed this morning I planned out how to go in the garage and quietly eat a bullet this morning . Then my son woke up and gave me a reason not to. My wife hid the guns before she left the house this morning. I checked before I left.
Gonna call the doctor at 9 and tell her to give me something else before I end up a statistic. I dont medicate very well and I know that my mind is constantly fighting the effects of the drug. Thats what ***** me up. I should feel happy while on this ---- but I dont.
#39
Re: Any one else here who needs a padded room?(just venting!!)
Originally Posted by shadow
oh yeah, i see things sometimes.....like shadows and ---- moving, seriosuly.
yep, we're all a little fucked up, some just more than others, my brother is on the more than others
yep, we're all a little fucked up, some just more than others, my brother is on the more than others
#40
Re: Any one else here who needs a padded room?(just venting!!)
Originally Posted by SDRAWKCAB
No ---- I have OCD too
Im not a clean freak but i ------- freak out when someone moves something and i can find it.
My big thing its even numbers, all volume levels have to be a even number or a multiple of 5. Its like in my head 19 is to loud but 17 isn't loud enough. God help me if i have to be up in the morning because ill check my alarm clock about 15 times before i go to bed. I don't know when it started but i started making check list in my head and now i cant stop. If i don't check stuff before i leave my house ill keep asking myself if i did it or not. I feel a little crazy at times but i have been working on it with out any drugs.
Now when i turn up my stereo i just don't look at the numbers.
PROGRESS